it’s been too long since my last post.
over the past week my life has been about getting things done. i feel the end of september approaching, and i’m determined to meet the goals i set for myself when i decided to quit my job and take a month off.
i felt like it was important for me to take a month for myself so i could recover and refocus: recover from a year and a half with an abusive employer, and refocus my priorities – my needs, my desires, my boundaries in my professional life. i saw a quote posted on facebook today that really resonated with me:
“any transition serious enough to alter your definition of self will require not just small adjustments in your way of living and thinking, but a full-on metamorphosis.”
– martha n. beck
that is, in one small sentence, essentially what i was feeling when i wrote about the decision to leave my job. i tried and tried and tried so hard to make my employer happy with me, but it didn’t matter how well i performed or how perfectly i met their standards; i couldn’t make them happy because i wasn’t the right person for them. i could – and did – “make small adjustments in my way of living and thinking,” but what they desired was a “full-on metamorphosis.” my efforts were a lost cause, making my life more and more meaningless and destroying my sense of worth and purpose there.
because i was so mentally and emotionally drained trying to accomplish the impossible day after day, all other aspects of my life suffered. i became dull. i had no energy in my time away from work to do things i would normally do. other problems going on in my life were magnified. i found myself either going out constantly to find an escape, or staying in exclusively to lay around, hoping to get enough rest to feel recharged before the next time i worked.
so the last few weeks, since september 1st, it’s been about me. it’s been about my whole-person health. it’s been one of the best and least stressful times of my life. i’m taking care of me, because i’m useless to myself, my family, and my community if my whole person isn’t a healthy person. i’m so excited for all the things i’ve accomplished this month and can’t wait to recap them with you in about a week.
for now, enjoy some of the things i’ve been enjoying lately! :
fiery skull diaries 
That cake looks divine–what on earth is the purple stuff?
it was a lavender-lemon cake! wish i could take credit for creating it, but all i did was an A+ job of eating it.
Taking a month off to recreate myself would be amazing. I’ve been trying to find myself these past couple of months and so far I think I’m doing an excellent job. I am glad you have accomplished so much. When you accomplish something it makes your life so wonderful. :)
i feel really fortunate to be able to take time off and not worry about working and making enough money. i’m grateful that my husband is supportive of me doing this; honestly it’s enriched both our lives so far. :]
I’m very glad you were able to get out of that situation. I know you struggled with it for a long time!
It is so awesome that you were able to take the time off. This last time I’ve been unemployed, I really looked at it as a time to accomplish some things, and not just hang around the house. It really made a difference!
And the nose spot kills me! So cute!
I’m very glad you were able to get out of that situation. I know you struggled with it for a long time!
It is so awesome that you were able to take the time off. This last time I’ve been unemployed, I really looked at it as a time to accomplish some things, and not just hang around the house. It really made a difference!
And the nose spot kills me! So cute!